November
2005
Dear Friends,
In the last six months in particular, many people
have been going through an intense journey of reviewing
every area of their work, their lives, their direction
(individually and together), their businesses, their
relationships etc. This journey has intensified since
the summer. Many have been shaken to their core too,
just as the earth has been, and this shaking continues,
with a purpose.
It is almost as though we need shaking out of our
little boxes, our security and the things that we
have clung onto as the 'known'. We find ourselves
questioning all those things, that until now have
given us our grounding, our sense of identity and
our sense of place in the world. Some things we will
end up keeping and not changing, some we will let
go of, and some things we will keep but they will
be very different, because we will have changed the
way we look at them or the way we do things. It is
almost as if we have to think the unthinkable, and
express all the things that we have been afraid to
express, about our deepest needs at this time.
It feels as though our hearts and our souls are
pushing us to recognise what it is that we really
need at this time - what we need to be involved in,
what we need to let go of, and what out hearts and
souls are calling us forward into at this time. It
is as though we need to check in every day, to how
we are all feeling, and to what is coming up for
us that we find hard, or that we need to express
or create in our lives in some way. Often what is
calling us is way beyond what we have perceived to
be how our lives would be, or what we ourselves would
end up doing - how we would be living, or where our
individual journeys might be taking us.
In this process it is the journey that is the most
important part. We are being forced to be in the
moment. We cannot see the future or how things will
pan out but we can feel the pressure of change, and
it is almost irresistible, and very stressful when
we try to resist it, or try to pin down where it
is leading us. Some of us will experience big external
changes as well as big internal changes, for others
the changes will end up being mainly internal, in
our attitudes and perceptions of ourselves, of others,
of life or of how we go about doing things. Because
of this, it can feel very confusing, because we cannot
see where we will end up, and our 'little minds'
don't like that even if our Higher Self knows that
all is in place and all will be well.
Many times we think we've got the answer, only to
realise that we haven't. We come up with this vision
for the future, or that, or another. What feels right
and true one day doesn't the next. It is almost as
if we are being forced to become comfortable with
the possibility of constant change and the flexibility
of mind, heart and soul that we develop through this
process.
This can feel very difficult for us if we like things
to be known and predictable and reliable, and if
we ourselves like to be predictable, dependable and
reliable. It can feel very painful to be always changing
our minds! We need to let go our judgement of ourselves
and each other, and we need to have a joint understanding:
that being changeable and getting used to being changeable
is the nature of the process that we are in at the
moment. We are called upon to develop a different
kind of grounding, in love and responsiveness to
the moment, and what is called for and appropriate
in the moment.
If we are very responsible and have grown to be
dependable, we don't like to let anyone down. We
don't want to be irresponsible with other people's
lives and it is hard to let go of things that may
have taken us years to build up. For many of us we
have placed much of our security in what we feel
is 'stable and predictable' - our home, our relationship,
our work, our way of relating.
We seem to be growing wings and learning how to
fly, after so many years of learning how to be grounded
and reliable, and it can feel very unsettling to
have to find our grounding in our hearts, and in
love and in what is really real, moment by moment.
We are becoming angels, and in doing so we need to
learn how to take ourselves lightly, to shine our
light, to be transparent and mutable and to not be
so weighed down by all that we have created, or by
how we think things 'ought to be'.
Our fearful inner child (not our divine child) is
often terrified by all of this change. It is as though
our fearful inner child represents all the limiting
fears that have been created within the human psyche
- the fears that we are each individually clearing
at this time, as part of this leap into joy. Part
of this process is learning how to divinely parent
our inner child - to soothe it, to comfort it and
to remind it that all is well. We may find ourselves
facing our deepest fears at this time, because this
is where we hold ourselves in limitation and in denial
of who we really are, and this is where the transformation
and liberation from suffering occurs.
As we follow the journey, day by day, we begin to
realise what it is that we need to let go of and
what things will remain. This process is about love
and about being true to ourselves, and trusting that
whatever we eventually need to do will happen in
such a way as to be loving to all concerned.
There is a need not to be afraid of expressing our
deepest needs to each other - needs that may have
remained buried for years, that perhaps we feel are
selfish, or un-meetable. We are being called to be
totally honest with each other about how we really
feel about things. The defence and the hiding about
how we feel and about who we are has to be left behind.
In one sense we need to be prepared to 'lose all
to gain all'. We need to follow this journey with
the deepest love for ourselves and for each other,
and for each of our individual needs. This journey
of clearing and sorting on every level - this opening
of all the cupboards and drawers - may not lead us
where we think it will lead!
In all of this there is a call to trust - to trust
in love - to trust that all will unfold in love,
in the best way for all concerned - and at the right
time - and to trust that we will be supported on
every level, in love. We have to let go with our
'little minds' because, from the perspective of the
'little mind' we can't see where this journey is
taking us. Instead we need to trust into the process
and embrace the extraordinary insights, understanding
and love that we experience day by day as we surrender
to this process.
As Chan, guide of Ivy
Northage, once said: "All
your needs will be met - but only day by day".
If we look back over our lives these last few years,
we will see that all our needs have always been met,
day by day. This is not going to change. It is all
about love and truth. We really are here to realise
heaven on earth, in this lifetime - to remember who
we are and what all 'this' really is - and it's not
about fear - and it's not a mental thing - it's an
experience, and it happens right in the heart of
our daily lives, and in recognising and communing
with the invulnerable and infinite divine in each
other and in everything.
with love and best
wishes to one & all
Rose
